vampiresshottie

after everything that has happened the robbery and everything as well as the lost of our child things are finally looking up.  We have another little on on the way as I am now 15 weeks and 3 days pregnant as well as the plan to move out of this shit hole.  I finally got my computer back as i did not have a charger still cant understand how with everything that was taken they didnt touch my laptop which was next to the TV they took...though i am happy to still have it.  Brandon also got a new job ^_^ doing all he can to provide for this family cannot wait for this baby to get here <3

wow just saying i was very over dramatic as a teen lol looking back on it i just wanted to be loved and supported to have true friends to hang out with and talk to but thats all in the past im a strong independent person who is doing fine on her own no parents or anything and i have an amazing fiancee that loves me till death even through all the shit we have gone through with loosing our child and all my medical issues...he will always be by my side and i will love him forever because of that

yeah so sry im not on that much computer died (hard drive melted) so im on my moms laptop i lost all my work and im pissed but yeah ive been pretty shitty tryed out for the school play failed at that brook gave me the silet treatment for 2 weeks and saied i started it not doing so well in school cuz i cant focas until they get my meds right ill problaly kill myself on the stage at rouch de bouf dance is boreing they said they moved my up a class but i still no more then they do i just need to work twice as hard because of my knee i havent had a smoke in like 2 weeks and i really need one now drama follows me everywhere my parents are accuseing my of skipping school cuz the stupid grade thing online said i missed the last to periods of school but i was out on a feild trip i dont no im complaining too much but i need it out some way on the bright side im going to maumee valleys homecomeing this weekend with my friend from fenceing adam (aka my gay boyfriend) and i might  get to be part of the dance team thats about allt he good things that has happened lol it can only get better though right?

ok so this girl brook ive liked her since last year and well last year she had a bf well he cheated on her and now she is single.  shes been going through a rough time lately and well ive been doing all i can to make her feel better.  so weve been getting close and sne knows my feelings for her and all and she said she likes me too but she said that last year as well so origanaly i didnt no what to think well i normaly walk her to her bus and hug her good bye...well today was diffrent...SHE KISSED ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...im feel so high right noe it is unbelieveable she is and amazing girl and im so happy im probaly the happiest girl in the world right now...sorry if u all dont care but i just needed to get this out...eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeek!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

he will be in our hearts forever
he will never be forgotten
he will always be alive in side of our hearts
liveing within us
always by our sides
makeing us laugh
when we are sad
even when we aren't
he was a great friend
and i want him back
i want to wake up from this nightmare
i want to see him again
i want someone to pinch me
and wake me up